Reflecting on my 2012

Today, I’ve been reading this year’s journals and reflecting more on the past year than perhaps I’ve ever done before on a New Year’s Eve. And I have a few things to share… 12 Changes of 2012 I wrote something similar in the eleventh hour of 2010, two years ago now. Now, after such a ...

The Great Romance

Once I’ve chosen my diamond, the other diamonds show themselves to be the cheap, ugly fakes they are, validating my choice in the strongest way … right? Men in suits and women in dresses flank the happiest man and the most radiant woman on their wedding day. The bride and groom have eyes only for ...

Living the Joy

Today is a day of joy. But it’s not Christmas yet. No, it isn’t. Neither is it any sort of long-awaited day circled on my calendar. There are days I’m looking forward to in the weeks and months and years to come, some of which are attached to definite dates, while others are still fluttering ...

We are Witnesses

We are all witnesses. We must take this responsibility seriously, even when the distance threatens to numb and slow and stifle. Witnesses testify to the truth. The truth is never nice, because “nice” is a nothing word. For better or for worse, the truth opens your eyes, sets you free, gives you purpose. I am ...

The Gift of Waiting

There are many things I’m waiting for right now. And I’m learning to dance in the hallway in front of the closed door, to smile in quiet hope, to sing my half of the song even when you aren’t here to complete the duet. Calmly holding gifts that I can’t unwrap yet … that is ...

Love for the Road

As fellow humans, we all experience the same basic emotions. We all grieve at what is lost and rejoice at what is found. We all bury our faces in disappointment and let them beam with joy. We all laugh and cry, think and feel, dream and plan. I know this, but I can only experience ...

Swallowed in Love

Sometimes, the real world and the world of make-believe crisscross in some pretty powerful ways. The redemption story, the metaphors of faith, the vivid pictures of a cold world felt by millions. But other times, I swallow entertainment like a sedative. In times like these, times when I’m so weak and tired and desperate that ...

To Fully Love

If we look at our relationships with the people we love the most, we will learn so much more about what it means to love God. When you love someone, you aren’t counting the time you’re spending with them in order to meet a certain quota. You’re simply radiant in being with them, and the ...