… but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing.” (Romans 7:19)
I just finished a wave of projects in most of my classes. Now I don’t have any major assignments due right away.
This is my danger zone, and not just because of the procrastination factor.
“I don’t hafta, so I don’t wanna” becomes my mantra during these lulls. I sleep in late, I park myself in front of my computer, I don’t do much of anything … especially not what I most want to do. It’s the worst in the summer, when I have week after week of unscheduledness. It’s not the stretching, satisfying route, but it’s the easiest and the safest.
We all need times of rest after periods of intense work, but it’s easy to drop too many things during that rest, and to wait too long to pick them back up … or to gravitate toward the wrong kinds of rest.
I think it’s pretty obvious what you should not drop during times of rest (or busyness too, for that matter): God.
The most effective way to grow and mature is not to look at all those areas of your life that you fall short in, but to walk with God.
It’s simple, but it’s not easy, and you can’t expect to jump from 0% to 100% just like that.
It’s a process, a day-by-day journey, and you will fall down sometimes. But falling down doesn’t equal defeat, a going back to the very beginning, video game style.
It’s spending that free hour wrapped up in God and not yourself. It’s learning to let God infiltrate your thoughts and conversations. It’s not letting doubt or fear grow uncontested. It’s praying without ceasing. It’s letting your spiritual life expand beyond “quiet time.” It’s not waiting for the perfect time, but coming as you are.